Yes yes my daughter said that to me today. Thanks kid I’m really just packing on the pounds but I’m so happy you noticed!
Ah so in all of this I don’t know if I have said but Hayden knew we were pregnant and she was going to be a big sister again. We may have been a bit overly excited that we were going to have a third and Hayden had asked for another baby sister or brother so we told her a bit prematurely which was obviously a big mistake.
How do you tell them? How do you tell them that the baby that was inside your belly for 9 weeks is no longer there? It didn’t make it? We had decided well we’re going to try again so maybe just maybe we don’t have to tell her. But 3 miscarriages later and she’s still talking about being a big sister again I am now obviously beginning to think it wasn’t the best decision.
I know it is not the last time her saying something like that. She says random things all the time, she even likes to tell random people from time to time.
Over the holidays I took the kids to the distillery for the Christmas Market (*Sidenote: we honestly had the best time ever and it will be a new tradition*). While we were there we decided to go inside and have something to eat and get thawed out so we went to Mill Street.
The table beside us was a mother with her 2 daughters (who were probably just a bit younger then myself). Hayden took a real liking to them..so much that she introduced herself, her brother annnnd told them there’s a baby in my belly!! Yay everyone that I don’t know is so happy (Honestly the most lovely family ever) they all said congrats, I said thank you so much, put my beer to my mouth and chugged..actually feel like I raised my pint glass to them as to say cheers I’m pregnant and a fackin’ idiot with a beer. So I had to clear it up to this wonderful family that I am not infact pregnant she just thinks I am.
She will randomly tell people like that because she is so excited, she will randomly tell me that our baby is going to crack out of my belly real soon and I shake my head and say “not anytime soon babe”.
I keep thinking maybe she will forget we told her that, maybe she will realize something isn’t right but that’s alot to think of for a 4 year old and we all know they remember everything!
Maybe we approached it wrong but I have not been able to wrap my head around telling her this. This part will forever make it hard not to have sadness in me, but we will figure it out and lil Miss H has her bestfriend who she calls brother so I think that is reason to believe everything is great 🙂
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